and a new day

Isn't it amazing how one day can change your perspective? Just yesterday I was struggling terribly. Honestly, today isn't tons better, but my perspective has changed a bit. Yes, I am still missing having my oldest son around. Yes, I still wish that the CCAA would send our paperwork so that we can travel already. Yes, I'm still frustrated. But today, our pastor shared something that I needed to hear. He's preaching a series from James, and today's sermon was from James 5:7-12. The part that really struck me this morning:

Patience = confidence + control

or, patience is having confidence in God that He is truly in control. Boy did I ever need that reminder. Of course, it came on the heels of this worship song by Matt Redman called You Never Let Go. The words go, in part, like this:

Even when I'm caught in the middle of the storms of this life,
I won't turn back
I know You are near

I will fear no evil
For my God is with me
And if my God is with me
Whom then shall I fear,
Whom then shall I fear

Oh no You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no You never let go
Lord You never let go of me

I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
A glorious light beyond all compare
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
We'll live to know You here on the earth

It was hard to sing, knowing that I was NOT trusting God, not holding on. So now my focus is renewed--on the correct target, no less!--and I know that I will make it. Whether our Letter Seeking Confirmation arrives tomorrow, or Tuesday, or March 14, we will take comfort in the fact that God is in control. Our confidence in His control will provide all the patience we need.

Much better,

Jennifer